Entry I - Dreams, Strength and Peace?
As time goes by I start to notice more and more that I've only gotten weaker since my leave from the Organization. Since I've been able to live such a simple life again there's truely been nothing to keep me fighting. Reason for such actions has been lost to me and it brings me to question my own self. Will I continue to let myself fall? As much as I feel at peace more so then I ever have since being brought into this life of non-existence it disturbs me that I may never reach my goal in the end before I finally meet my true end.
I want to be a keyblade master. It's my very dream and the only thing I really have to hold onto at this point. There's nothing else really influencing anything else in my life. That one unattainable dream is what I strive to reach and I'm letting it go to waste. Every moment I let myself continue to slip farther into this care free life I get dragged a few more inches away from my dream. I want to become a keyblade master.
I think back, and even though it was never the most satisfying years of my life I realize that the Organization always had me going. Always had me growing stronger, yes for the wrongest of reasons, but stronger never the less. I felt so close to being impowered every time I won a battle or striked an enemy down and I realize that was my darker self pushing for that kind of strength. But I want that kind of strength again, only this time I want it to be my own and I want it to be for the good of keeping the peace rather then destroying it.
My former sellf knew that well. When I was human my mind set was for the greater good of keeping the peace around me after my parents were murdered. And even though now I truly focus on what's for the best of me I want to be able to once again tap into that strength and protect the current peace around me. I want to be strong and enjoy the peace once more. I want all of this and I want my dream.
Hopefully one day I will achieve it~
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